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Anak,

Sa aking pagtanda unawain mo

sana

ako at
pagpasensyahan.
Kapag dala ngkalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan
o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan, huwag mo

sana

ako sabihan ng “binge!”paki-ulit na lang ang sinabi mo o
pakisulat na lang.

Pasensya ka na anak
matanda na talaga ako.
Kapag mahina na tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo

sana

akong pandirihan.

Natatandaan mo ba noong bata ka pa
pinagtiyagaan kitang
habulin sa ilalim ng

kama

kapag ayaw
mong maligo.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas, ako’y masungit,
dala marahil ngkatandaan. Pagtanda mo maiintindihan mo rin.
Kapag may konti kang panahon,magkuwentuhan naman tayo,
kahit sandalilang. Inip na  ako
sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa.
Walang kausap. Alam kong BUSY ka sa trabaho, subalit nais
kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik na akong makakuwentuhan ka,
kahit alam konghindi ka interesado sa mga kwento ko.
Natatandaan mo ba anak, noong bata kapa? Pinagtiyagaan
kong pakinggan atintindihin ang pautal-utal mong kwento
tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.

At kapag dumating ang sandali na
ako’ymagkakasakit at
maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo

sana

akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng akingbuhay.
Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.

Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking
pagpanaw, hawakan mo

sana

ka sa iyong AMA’TINA….                                                                             

 .Nagmamahal, Nay at

Tay

“magnificent…ganda  no? ma …pa…love  you  po….-mae.."

Whats this red spots that pop-up on my skin???ang katiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii…i swear to death,it starting to be visible on my both arms,this tiny red rashes on my skin…i tought it just a simple allergy cause of air…1 day after it invade my legs…and its ouch….ang kati talaga,cant help na kamutin..hehehe…i starting to worry na bout this..it became my complain during im in my office…so i do something,,put an alcohol…put anything to relive the itchiness i felt…

During my 3rd day it got worst and worst….i already have in other parts of my body…my god!this supposedly a time that i must enjoy the summer…..what im supposed to do?..no..no….here wearing my jacket…saklap dba?ang init pa….nerve wracking and head dominating!!!!

Can help to see doctor…..and after all this…..I have daw TIGDAS!!!!!huhu…
I cancel all the escapades,dates etch and sit here in front of my computer,for this so called "TIGDAS HANGIN"…:-999

ahem….its
true…soon there will be a baby in my house….and im kinda
excited…wow its magnificent!!!!,,,,,,but wait..its not the baby that
comes from my womb…not now readers…im single!!haha…IM GOING TO BE
ATE SOON…cause my mom is pregnant!yes!yes!yes!you here it right! shes
pregnant..and after i gaining age,accumulative siblings are
done!!!hahaha…its nice indeed?

lets talk about love,..

as i promise to you…

Im giving you the scenario

Girl 1= she  is simple girl who resently failed in  one so called "relationship"

Guy 1= successful in his career,serious and never get into relationship for couple a
            

year

here it goes

Guy is suitor of girl_1 he did everything to prove how serious he is for a girl…
even in his busiest time,he never failed to give her a ring to let her know that hes always  there…

Girl_1 failed her 1st relationship…and she learn her lesson..never let someone imposed other identity on you..step by step she probably more wiser now.

Guy insisted na dumalaw sa hauz ni girl..girl refused dahil ayaw nya pang pumasok s isang relationship..all of a sudden,one day..dumating sya s hauz ni girl..girl nothing to do but introduce the guy to her family..initial reaction ng family is…blah..blah…

time comes along and his consistent,the girl naman is very vocal on telling that shes not ready for another relationship…pero sabi ni guy his willing to wait…

gusto ni girl makilala muna ni guy ung family nya before each one of them,,ginawa yun ni guy,he alwayz visit the family ni girl,the rest of sister,brother and even  titas…and the family like them so much…to the point na minsan nagkkaron ng comparison kay X..the family has nothing against the guy..his father just always tell be wiser this time..na kay girl pa din ang decision..

.

its been a month the both of them together,hindi mahirap mahalin c guy,he has a good preference…he respect the girl all the time…they had a good time together,actually they are exclusively dating,txting, it seems sila na hindi namn….

ayaw ni girl na paasahin c guy pero mas gusto ni guy n makasama c girl…kahit ganun lang sila..walang "commitment", no string attached

guy go to thailand for a his games as athlete…hindi na hinatid ni girl si guy sa airport considering na this is one of his big event…she dont want to go further..
and it seems natatakot si girl s klase ng career na meron si guy…he has all the temptation in this world…successful man,any girl cant blame to like him….

during wala si guy sa pinas,,,nagiisip si girl..wud she still pair for the guy…
wala na ung burden ng past pero bakit hindi nya pa kayang magtiwala kay guy…

ok lang ba na hanggang dun nalang sila?friendz? pero alam mong mahal ka ni guy…
pero yun lang yung kaya mong i-offer…girl like the man,shes happy kapag kasama nya to…do the girl playing safe not to be hurt again?or ayaw nya n magkaroon sya ng karapatang masaktaN pa…..do she really unfair…

Now umuwi na si guy and mas marami n syang maipagmmlaki kay girl…pero still ganun pa din yung status ng emotion ni girl..and si guy nman willing to wait…wait desperately…and ok lang sa kanya yung maging friend sila basta makasama nya si girl

Girl is in dilemma

Wud she still pair for both of them
Wud she take the risk even she know that her feelings is uncertain?
Being in the commitment is last in her priorities….

This is the option
tel the guy to stop being with her kahit alam mong masasaktan xa
or
come what may…continue to be friendz and walang commitment
coz hes agree to the idea,just to be with the girl…

you?
Who so ever read this…
wud you give advise to the girl?

hay nakoo isa na namang umagang kay saya…haha..gising at pasok s trabaho.gising pasok s trabaho…uwi…!!!yan ang routine ng buhay ko..kung tatanungin nyo ang luvlyf ko?aba wag nyo na tanungin dahil sa ibang blog ko nalang sasabihin…ok!

well…
nagising ako s isang panaginip…kung saan nasa isng paraiso ako pero meron nalang akong tatlong oras para makita yun..nagtatakbo ako..cge takbo..takbo..pinuntahan ko ang lahat ng simbahan…ano ba yan..mukhang baguio at bataan in a mix yata ang napuntahan ko…tapos bigla kong nakita ang isang food chain>>>ano daw!!!bakit may ganung eksena…well..wala lang paradise with a apron!anu daw…anu konek…haha…dead end..tapos na kasiyahan ko…

-s totoo lang meron kc aqng trip s baguio supposedly this x-mas pero dahil s nag- decrease ng 5 degrees ang baguio…hindi nako tumuloy…mamatay kaya ko…kaya mid of this year nalang..sana…!!!!!im a homebody person but as much i possible i want to travel with a sence…i like to see the beauty of the world right before my eyes!!!!

koneksyon:
Ano nga ba ang panaginip…?well they ses it is the unconsious part of your brain that working while you sleep..isnt so?bakit ganun katoo?…why the feelings intensly involve…why the burden you kept is reveal..and it seems its haunting you…minsan nga nkkrelate s mga totoong pangyayari s buhay natin…there is so many things talaga in this world we cant explain..thats why…

sweet mo mooch…enumerating my qualities is the sweetest blog you ever wrote.(see below)
so heres one for you

1. He never failed to make me smile
2. He respect me a lot
3. Hes Honest and sincere which is the leading factor of Faithfulness
4. Hes Responsible
5. He also shares future with me
6. Hes a silent type but a sweet individual
7.  He never failed to give a cling in his busiest times
8.  Hes full of surprises and capable of doing crazy things that make me feel special       person in his life
9.  Hes also a good conversionalist-we’ll never ran out of things to talk to.
10. Hes an open minded and down to earth person
11. Hes also proud of me..he introduce me to his family and friends
12. We both love a long walk while talking anything under the sun
13. He is the refresher of my life when everything seems to be bad…
14. He let me in my childish mode,but assure that it seems to be ok when we both
      do.hehehe
15. He loves to listen to my songs..and sing along with me..
16. He cares for me as i equally cares for him
17. he doesnt have complete  day without hearing my voice even on phone
18. He shares his problems, worries and
life’s experiences with me
18. we both love photos
19. He let me eat as much as i want…and assure that i never missd even one meal
     (he help me to gain again my lost eating habits)
20  Hes a great cook..
20. we have the same ML level
21. we both love adventures and travel
22. He never fail to remind me to sleep early and
have enough rest
26. He listen to my stories and gives me good
advices
27. He always remind me that he loves me so much and make it visible for all hes 
     doings.
28. Hes a Husband material
29. He likes my family and stays @ home moreover willingly comes along with my 
      friendz
30. He has a great time with my papa
32 .We both love kids
31. He taste my trying hard recipe for him and he ses "IT TAsteS GOOD!!!!>
32. He loves me
unconditionally.

Seems i Enumerate as well as you enumerate..im second d motion.. but let me tell you that when all of this qualities fades…its you that i love…for simply being you…Happy Monthsarry!!!

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

For my poochiness

1. she’s full of natural sense of humor
2. she’s honest, sincere and true to
herself and me
3. she thinks matured
4. she shares the same dreams with
me
5. she’s got a sense of responsibility
6. she’s so malambing everytime
- and unique in her "tampo aker"
7. she makes sure that i can squeeze in even
in her most busy times
8. we share crazy things yet, make fun out of it
9.
she’s a good conversationalist - we’ll never ran out of anything to talk
about
10. she’s an open-minded person
11. she’s proud of me - she
introduce me to her family and friends
12. she dedicates songs to me - and we
exchange songs
13. she’s full of smiles - she never allows stress to eat her
up
14. she cares a lot about me - sees to it that i eat well and on time, i
take care everytime
15. she sends SMS many times a day
16. she always make
a way to see me and chat with me everyday - especially on weekends
17. she
calls me even if it will cost a lot
18. she shares her problems, worries and
life’s experiences with me
19. we both love photos
20. we both love to eat
- shrimps, seafoods, etc.
21. we have the same ML level
22. we both love
travelling
23. she’s beautiful inside and out
24. she wants the same
number of children as i do
25. she never fail to remind me to sleep early and
have enough rest
26. she listen to my stories and gives me good
advices
27. she’s a wife material
28. she’s interested to meet my family
members
29. she say that she loves to cook for me
30. she loves me
unconditionally too.

11/21/07 6:00pm

i dont know why few hours ago im in front of sm cinema to watch a movie which never caught my interest
b4,certainly i want to sit back and relax on my room with my bunch of movies..but for a change.. time for big screen…

ate donna,cecille and i..they insist to watch this movie
a story of couple who give space to each other and found contrary
when one side found a new interest..huhu

from start to bottom of the story i cried and cried…
a bunch of tears fell from my eyes..maybe im just being
emotional and over reacted,but come to think of this..
i didnt cried because of the love i used to bear,instead i cried
for a celebration,because i never feel the same way again..
I dont feel the love anymore,
i became a fool, a damn fool for letting someone
imposed other identity on me..
its different now,im back to myself..cant go back to living
through that kind of love…not anymore…

one Line of story ses:
"INIIWAN TAYO NG MGA MAHAL NATIN DAHIL MAY "MAS" N DADATING,YUNG
TAONG HINDI KA SASAKTAN AT HINDI KA IIWAN,NUNG NANDYAN AKO GANYAN
DIN AKO,PERO UMALIS AKO DYAN DHIL ALAM KUNG MAY DADATING PA SAAKING
"MAS"

I agree
cause may dumating saaking "MAS"
a triple times more deserving
…..make me feel love in a way that
i wanted to be love..

THe story of the couple may be varied from my story but in some way i feel related..
in one relationship,ensure the comfortablity of each one of us,when u can express
your own you without judging and mis-interpret…and in one point when things cannot work out anymore,just soar high and spread your wings find your missing self that somehow steal by the unfaithful and selfish affair…

somehow…

Message:
moochiness ko….
the inteligent one…

my frend
my fellow cristian
my brother…..

my love
my moochi

i will alwayz be here watever it
takes,ill never promise u anything, but
let me prove that promise worth in
action that i make,,

i will keep you,so that no one ever hurt u,

its so easy to revive the fast that we
left unsaid.
after we live separates ways
destiny lead us back

the reason of million smile flashes in
my face
the origin of happiness that i keep for
several years
the reserve point of my unconditional love

then ,
way back our college days
the only one call me "poochiness"

the one that make me excite
inspite im working with thesis and majors..
memories still d same
yoURS still you again

……..my moochiness

COngratz to ourselves,
even once our journey declined

thus,we found other interest and love..

we just lost it,
so that
in some point
we meet again
when all wrong b4, turns to right

this is our time…

you are worth waiting for,
worth loving

the person where i resides..,,

cant help to tell the world IM SO PROUD
OF U..

in some chapter of once life….somebody hurt you with thier bare hands..or using sharp edges of what theyve done…but come to think this…they still hurt you,because you let him to hurt you…

let d fast be the fast,,we cannot change it anymore..just leave behind and let it go..forgive and forget..learn from your expirience…..

this fst few days…i give attention to all the things that matters to me…which once in a wyl i missed and overlook…my friends…family..love ones…they all there to support u in the middle of agony and pain…and eventually..everythings fades away…you come back to fce a new day…as a new you….forgive the people that makes you a lot of pain and heartaches…understand….put ur best foot forward in any decision u make…life comes along…you must learn to unravel the mystery of ur existence……..

here i am…back in blogging……………..